Selfishness

I wasn't thinking
Quite right last night,
And I know you remember 
Every word. 
I know I am not the reason
You left,
But call me a fool,
Because I thought I
Could be the reason you stayed. 
If anyone asks the reason I left,
Tell them I could
Hear your smile in everything. 
And I could not stop
The tears from falling,
But I thought maybe I could
Distract you for a bit. 
I wasn't thinking quite right
Last night. 
Was it suddenly easier to breathe?
Did you finally smile 
With your last breath?
And if anyone asks why I left
Tell them I saw you in everything. 
I still see you 
In everything.