Too Much To Lose

I want it all I had it all when You were here But you left and I guess We don't Talk about it Anymore, my dear. And I wanted To be everything, But I guess we Couldn't do it, I guess I Beat you to it And this fall is Just too much now And my heart, It beats too fast, now, And we talk about it Late nights, How it can't last But, You don't seem to Mind that now, Do you Baby Girl? I lost feeling now, Like rubies In my chest, Making this sound Like it's pretty, Baby, I'm really just A mess and I hold back like You would not believe But that's okay 'cause You don't really Need me, but I hoped that You could have Held on a Little longer and Maybe I just Could not believe That I gave so much to you, So there's nothing left for me.
How about the Fact that life is lived and I've made no impact and Maybe the way my Thoughts Are racing, the way That you left me So complacent in this Heartache always So adjacent to The way that My hand falls Against the wall, It's all about the placement.
You told me This was dangerous But I just wouldn't listen. Clean up just isn't as Simple as it was When we were little Because Now that I have a reason To give up. I have nothing To the contrary, If this is what you Want I guess this is what I give. If I had a little bit, I guess then I could still live But here I am Just wishing that I was gone and You would listen But your mind is Somewhere else And I've been too long Missing So if this is What we need Then I guess This is the mission Of a god Who's will I never Believed in any way. If this is how we spend It then I guess This is my last day. Despite my fate to Despise this place I have far too much To lose In this one race. But I guess I've lost it all for you. I guess I had Too much to lose.